‘tis the damn season

I had a thousand chances to tell you.

When you sat beside me, talking about everything and nothing.

When you smiled at me like I mattered.

When I memorized the sound of your voice because I knew I'd never hear it the same way again.

But I stayed quiet.

Because what do you say

when your heart knows something your head won't accept?

I wanted to scream,

"I feel something you don't.

And it hurts more than I can explain."

But I bit my tongue.

I pretended I was okay being just someone in your life, when all I ever wanted was to be the one.

It's not that I was scared of rejection.

I was scared of ruining what little I had with you.

So I chose silence.

Because silence doesn't leave scars, words do.

And maybe you'll never know.

Maybe that's how this was meant to end, me loving you quietly, while you never even noticed.

* ‘tis The Damn Season- Taylor Swift 🎶*