"You seem better"
No. I've just gotten better at pretending…
at holding it together in front of people….
at smiling when I feel like screaming….
at saying I'm okay because it's easier than explaining the storm I'm still carrying.
Sadness doesn't always look like tears. Sometimes it looks like a perfectly normal day, performed on autopilot… but the truth is, I still ache. I still miss him in the smallest moments. I still catch my breath at old photos, still avoid songs that remind me, still feel like I'm faking my way through conversations.
Just because I've learned how to hide my blue doesn't mean I've stopped feeling it.
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