Love Ridden

Some love stories make sense on paper.

Ours never did.

And yet, it's the only chapter I keep re-reading in my head.

I wake up some days trying to convince myself I'm over you.

That I've moved on.

That I've accepted how life pulled us in different directions.

But then, you text.

I call.

Or I see something that reminds me of you.

And suddenly, I'm back at square one,

wondering what it could've been if life had been a little kinder to us.

We still talk every day…

But we don't even know what we are.

But we both know, there is something.

Something neither of us has been able to walk away from.

It's the way you remember my coffee order.

The way I check if you’ve eaten.

The way we always talk like nothing's changed, even though everything has.

It's the fact that when something good or bad happens, you're still the first person I want to share it with.

Even if I know I shouldn't.

It's complicated.

People wouldn't understand.

But my feelings?

They're quietly loyal.

Still rooted in moments that never got their ending…

But you're not mine.

Never have been. 

Never will be.

We just. exist. 

Existed. 

In this strange, painful middle.

And maybe that's the kind of love no one talks about, the kind that lingers,

even when it's not allowed to stay.

 *Love Ridden- Fiona Apple 🎶*